I saw a painting of Joseph Smith in Liberty Jail and thought on all his trials. A man who may have been one of the most tried man in American History. Why would my blessing reference this man if I am not supposed to go through some trials? I'm not just talking physical pain, of which I have been dealing with, but various types of challenges. Like dealing with moving, and losing friends, and losing friends because they've gone down different roads and made some very poor decisions.
There were lots of times when I felt alone and friendless. And I would wonder why. I can say I learned to apply the enabling power of Christ's atonement when I was young. I knew that Jesus felt all of my pain, and could comfort me and help me through my trials. I would pray until I felt the love of my heavenly friend, a friend who's always willing to talk with me and can truly say I know I have been there, and I would not get off my knees until I felt better.
I have dealt with dyslexia all my life. And I will continue to have this battle, until my last day. I want you to think about how much you read in a day. It effects everything in my life in one way or another. Ether 12:27 And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humblethemselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weakthings become strong unto them. I guess I would be too prideful if I didn't have this struggle in my life. I know God gives us weakness to stretch us and we are like a piece of clay on the potter's wheel. First off, we have to be centered on Christ, or our centripetal force will bring us to our breaking point. We have to be moldable, malleable to God's will. He will stretch us, which is like our trials. This makes us bigger and have more capacity to receive his blessings.
Hey, I found a cool connection to the Savior. I am a TUCKER. The occupational name for Tucker means a fuller of cloth. But I found out what that means. A fuller is someone that makes cloth white. Next to the refiner's fire, is the fuller's soap. Through Christ we can become white. Interesting.
I am loving my mission. And I know a lot more about the atonement of Jesus Christ.
That's it for now, I gotta go. Lot you all. Thank you for all the emails, I haven't had a week where I've felt so connected in a long time.
And thank you for the Valentine's packages Mom, and Grandma!