Maybe there's a reason for it. I know the Lord works in mysterious ways. I still don't want to go home now, even as I'm writing you this though my stomach hurst. I told him I will pray about it when I go to the temple on Wednesday, and asked them to both pray with me to find out what the Lord wants me to do. I think, I hope, it's to stay here. But again, my will is not God's will.
I'd like to ask you to pray with me this week. Whether the Lord wants me to come home and get better and come back out, or it he wants me to stay out here. I'm now asking you to fast for me, you've fasted enough for my health already.
John Easton isn't really progressing, and Jill has been avoiding us. And we have no new investigators.
Hey Dad, I want to stay out as long as I can, I love my mission, and that's why it's so hard. Is that it's taking me out of my missionary work more frequently. I am exhausted with trying to fight this fight, I want to work more than my body will let me. It's about mentally taxing as it is physically. I expected to be able to work every day. To have some occasional sick days, but not three times a week. I didn't expect to be in pain so long. And I pushed through a lot of pain as it is. That's the worst part, it's holding me back, when I'm trying to do my best. And I expect more of myself than anyone else does. I could use some encouragement.